Upon The Hands Of God.

Upon God's Hands, I have a future. A future that is with great pleasure, That his own hands created for me. The future that has great mystery that no one can figure out. I am blessed to even be living. God has had plenty of chances to take me away, and bring me to the place I will call home. He created me knowing what joy and love I would bring to my family, since I was the first born. He blessed my family to bring me into my families life. And he has blessed me in so many ways, giving me a great family to look up too, friends who love me for who I am. and a boyfriend who I can call mine forever. When I was younger I never knew how much God has given me, until he opened my eyes. And made me realize that I needed him in my life, and ask him in my heart. After, I did I have never been happier. Yes, I will admit I have had my ups and downs but, I always ask for him to forgive me. And I know he does.
But, I am looking forward to be able to see in him in face to face, and tell him "Thank You for Everything". Thank you for giving up your life for me, and everyone else. If it wasnt for you we would not even be here. I am ready, ready tonight..ready anytime for you to come back.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank You so much for everything, I am so blessed for the life you have given me and thankful for having the amazing family, friends and boyfriend that you have given me.
You are our awesome god!
In Your Name, Amen.

Words I Speak.

Words that come out of my mouth, can be hurtful or they can be the most sweetest thing I have ever said before. I dont mean to say the things I say to make someone cry or to make them fell like I do not care, even though I love them more than anything. I do not know what I can do to prove to him how much I care, and love him. He is my world, and I can't believe I actually say things that can actually come close to losing him. I never thought I could do that to the person I love the most.It is just I can say somethings that I do not mean! It is like my mind is out of control and I do not have control of what I am saying. Ugh, I just hate myself..sometimes because you have no idea how bad it makes me feel. I guess from now on.. I guess I just have to watch my mouth before I say something.. That might hurt someone

Little Kids In LOVE.

I know for a fact im with the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. Yes, we both still act like little kids.. We know how to have fun. We laugh over stupid little jokes that arent really that funny. We cuddle, Write Letters. Just little things you would do when you were younger.

We are always going to be kids at heart, just by the way we act. But, thats a good thing right? when two kids fall in love, when they are actually in a adult body.

I know the way he treats me. I just feel like my heart is pounding out of my chest like one of those wacky lovey dovey cartoons.

But I love every second, minute...hour I can talk, or spend time with him. He makes me feel like no other. I feel like I am the only girl left on the face of the face I feel so good.

I know sometimes we have little kiddy sissy fights that last maybe 30 minutes to a hour. But I still love him more than life itself. I know sometimes we might have a fight and it last all night but I know deep down inside I am so mad and hurt..But, I have to say I am still very happy in the end I still have him in my life.

He completes me, He made me a better person. He made me realize how to have fun, just like little kids would do.

I love him so much!

kids at heart, together forever.

7 Months <3

2-2-07

For better or worse, through thick and thin,you've been there by my side sharing the laughter and the tears through life's uncertain ride.We don't know what the future has in store for you and me but this I know, without a doubt, the best is yet to be.

So, I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go I love you more than anyone I just had to let you know And if you ever wonder why I don't know what I'll say But I'll never stop loving you each and every day My feelings for you will never change Just know my feelings are true Just remember one thingI Love You!

I've known you for only a short period of time, but I feel as ifI've known you forever. I tremble with joy at your every touch. The feel of your hand taking mine I want you to hold it forever. I glow with happiness every time you're near. I want you near me now, I want to be with you forever. My knees grow weakin your loving arms. I want to stay there, I want you to hold me forever. My body melts with every kiss you give. Just the thought of your lips on mine I want you to kiss me forever. My heart jumps to know how much you care. Knowing that it is so much more I want you to love me forever.

He is my highest high Soft touches into my soul In which I always hope to keep Him and I creative and new Days I look forward to I wish the sun would never set Or the stars would always twinkle Into our hearts as we are together Forever in myself I am to him what he Is to me; I hope a light a Love and the thought of us Always I said never and not again Another chance for me to take the right path Into myself he goes and I will keep him warm All I want to do is take it all The way and savor every moment Make him my all; He is my light Into the dark I will never go again When I'm with my love I wish the sun would never set Or the stars would always twinkle Into our hearts as we are together Forever in Ourselves.

I love you for who you are and The way you accept me as what I am. I love you for understanding the Real meaning of life that is born out Of our love. I love you, for we have touched Our life with love and care. I love you Not only for what you have made of yourself But what you are making of me.I love you, Even though we're far apart.I love you most of all because You're my wonderful boyfriend, And you mean so much to me.

The guy I met one day Never thinking it would turn out this way We met at a music fest now we are going to be together for the rest I believe we are meant to be I think God has sent him to me I love him with all my heart and I never want to part Sometimes we have our days But that's the only way He's all I ever wanted and now I have my true love and I will never let him go. I love him

This is how I feel, I love you so much..Happy 7 Months Baby!

Thoughts in A Plane Crash.

Today, even though I was not here. a major tragic along MY neighborhood happened. A plane crashed just three houses below me walking distance. The smell of gas fuel fills the air, silence around us. Looking out your window, knowing six lives were taken away just 50 feet away. Very Scary thoughts run through my mind knowing the mount airy airport is not even a mile away and this could can happen anytime and it happened today.
But, Thankfully the plane didnt hit any houses and the worst part is still six people were still taken away.
In the picture, it might not look that bad, but if you only seen it in person you, would think different.

I am very thankful it didnt hit my house, or anyone elses houses. But I am keeping my thoughts and prayers for the families of the six victims. Yes, I never expected this to happen. But now I have learned, NEVER SAY NEVER. It can happen today, tomorrow..next week, anytime.

My Hubby

Younger days dreaming about the one I wanted to send the rest of my life with, made me wonder if it would ever come true. I meet this boy beginning of last year, the most amazing boy I have ever met, I was scared of falling for him, I actually was scared I would get hurt again. But, He kept telling me, Just give me a chance, I promise I will not hurt you. Well, I never gave in, even though I really did liked him, My heart kept telling go for him. He will be the one who will make your heart complete. He is perfect for you, Just thinking about it, gave me chills...thinking deep down inside, I was in love with him. And I never told him. Even though, I really wanted to. I knew I needed him in my life, as good as he needed me. It was honestly the first time, I was in love and he never knew. Finally I gave him a chance, and it was the best choice of my life I have never been so happy to call him mine. He makes my life complete, He is the reason my heart is whole. He is the reason why my heart beats fast and slow at the same time. He is the reason why I wake up smiling and go to bed smiling. He is the reason why everynight I go to bed and dream of happy thoughts. When you ask to describe him, I would say "PERFECT". Yes, I know, no one is perfect. But, In my eyes..my bby is the greatest most perfect person I know. I have to say I think god for everthing, including finally opening my eyes to realize, adrian is the one, i need in my life, and giving me the most perfect boyfriend, that I can honestly say I will spend the rest of my life with. Together Forever Babe, something we will say forever, and I know my life is going to be perfect well, is perfect. Because for one, I will have him always there, and plus being able to call him mine forever makes me so happy more than you will ever know. Even though he isnt with me as we speak, I know he will always be there for me. And I know for a FACT we will be together for forever 12.25.08? Yup, Thats the day. All I have to say is, I love you bby, so much more than anything in this world. you mean everything to me, and I could never imagine my life without you. When I say I will love you tonight, I will love you tomorrow, the next day, the next month. I will love you the next year, and the next forever..I mean it, and I hope you believe me. Thanks bby, for always being there for me, no matter if we are fussing or fighting doesnt matter, you are there. Thanks bby, for giving me a better life. Thank You for never giving up on me. I am so glad and proud to call you mine. I miss you so much right now, you dont even know. But, bby I am so looking forward to seeing you again.And I know that will not be long.

Worst Night

Well, today is a kind of night, I want to forget. It is the night I just want to move somewhere so far away, where no one knows me. The things he may tell me make me feel incredible. But, Now.. I feel like I have lost him. I'm trying so hard not to cry writing this blog But I can not help it.
I hate it when we fuss or fight, it just literally breaks my heart into pieces.
He just does not know how much I care and I love him.
I would do anything for him, God even knows that.
He is my heart, and my life. and I would never break it,
I just wish the day was going by better, if he could only see how much I care and I love him.
Life to me is him, He is my life.
He has brought out the best of me in so many ways, I just wish he would believe me..When I say "I love you" or "I wanna spend the rest of my life with you" because I mean it.
Please believe me when I say this, Adrian. I really do care and love you so much, I would never hurt you in any way..

I'm Sorry.