Jealousy? =\

Jealousy "typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival"

Why is it everytime I see a picture comment, comment from other girls..I tend to get so jealous. So, jealous to where it makes me wanna cry?

Isn't that the question that runs through all of our minds?...Including mine

I honestly try not to be so jealous. But, when it comes to you I can't help myself. I have tried to get over that "jealous" act of mine. But, when I see things I dont like I get very angry.

I take three deep breaths, Take a glance at the things I see. My insides go crazy, my heart beats faster. My "anger" part of me..controls my body and I say things I do not mean. Continually my fingers type cruel, vulgar words. When, honestly I do not mean it.

Jerk "an annoyingly stupid or foolish person, an unlikable person; especially : one who is cruel, rude, or small-minded"

I become a JERK.

A stupid small-minded annoyingly stupid foolish person. Well, that's not who I am. I would classify myself as a pretty descent person, the one who is always good to everyone, the one who trust myself deep down inside. I follow my heart.

I never honestly thought I would ever say this..But, I was a real Jerk.

Trust "a charge or duty imposed in faith or confidence or as a condition of some relationship something committed or entrusted to one to be used or cared for in the interest of another "

I mean he kept saying to me, "trust me on this..Just Trust me". To him it seemed like I didnt. Well, I really do. I trust him more than I have ever trusted anyone in my life. I mean I care so much about him it drives me crazy. I trust him with all my heart and soul.

I will always trust him till the end of time.. My trust for him will never go away as long as I have to live this jerkish foolish stupid life of mine. I will always trust him.

Life "the period from birth to death"

I guess I will have to get over it, realize..its life, nothing will ever change anything I say. I just have to deal with it, no matter what my mind is thinking or what my fingers are typing..always hit the backspace button. I wish I could hit the backspace button for life. Not saying I am wishing my life away..but hit the backspace button to become non-jealous or that stupid jerk, I am starting to become. But, guess what? You cant. No matter how many times I wish and beg it will not happen.

So, I have opened my eyes once again to "LIFE". I am going to become a better person, over come this jealously part of me, and realize everything is only life.. everyone goes through, no one is perfect in this situation.

Love "Adrian"

When it comes to love..I have found it, he has it all. He is all I have ever wanted in life, I am sorry for acting like i did...[ for the god knows many times ]. I just cant help myself, When you care so much about one person. You would do anything in life just to keep this person, or to be with him. I just do not want to lose you, thats /

all. I hope you understand.

Brandy "Jerk"

I promise I will change....